Starry starry night

Saw this yellowish starfish while walking along the Pangkor beach. It is very rare to see a half-died starfish that is bigger than my palm.





Lucky to see one!!!!! (Posted for you, xwing!!! ;p)

Holy-days

Ahh, finally the sound of relief emerges after weeks of hard work. Holiday is certainly holy-day for me. I sleep, eat, play, hop and online (basically doing nothing important, just to waste time.)

Well, if you have went through all these hard days, you will eventually realise that simple days where you lay down on your bed, doing nothing can be a great thing to do, especially when i don't always spend time at my hometown.

I think it is true. We spend our whole life, hunting for fame and fortune, which probably more that what we need and during the process, many other beautiful scenery are abandoned. Just like when we are driving, we tend to miss alot of scenery around us that we never realise how breath-taking there are.

Enjoy while you can and this is what i'm doing now. Need to recharge before the next sem starts. Long live, holidays!!!!!!

A Lesson in Saloon

I was forced to cut my hair again. The first thing i need to decide is to choose the correct saloon where the hairstyler is good enough to cut and style my hair. Second, i have to decide whether i want to wash my hair before i have to choose and decide which hairstyler and which style that i like and suit me in the same time. In that long- suffering process, i have to choose which magizine to read and which session in the magazine that i wish to read. In this mere 1 hour, i have make more decisions that i would make if i'm at college.

Life is simply significant because you learn things through experiences, either good or bad. Even a simple task or in a limited time, you may just figure out something that you may never know about yourself. Thats the importance of knowing yourself. Mimicking someone is pretty useless, unless you know the right one to mimic.

Making decision is not easy, especially when you are given a great responsiblity (or burden). However, before thinking of how to change the world, one should change himself first. If you can't decide and do the right thing for yourself, the chances are you will not able to choose a right deal for the other. Stop thinking of changing the whole world, changing all the inequality, dicriminations, class difference, social class and all this hellya problems if you are one of the millions that only talk/crap but taking no action. ;p

A night at hospital

It is just another night without moon and stars shining,
However, it will portrait a different scene when you are staring it in hospital.
It is just funny to know that health is wealth,
Only when you are no longer as healthy as you are.

Its been a tiring night, or week
When someone you know are becoming weaker and weaker
The aura seem to be spreading to everyone around me,
And that includes me.

2 more days before my final,
Yet, i really can't find any slot to sit down and study.
It sounds like an excuse,
Yet, that's the fact.

Vienna Test Result

Trivia about myself that i don't even realise

1) My IQ score is 114. WAY TOO HIGH!!!!!!

2)My long-term memory score is 95/100. I guess if they checked my short-term memory, it will damn low.

3)Inside me, i'm a sadist. I'm one of the potential serial killer, terrorist or psychopathy.

4)I'm not as cold blooded that i think i'm. I'm actually pretty nice ;p

5) There are reason why my parking sucks. I'm bad in visualizing. Mom, i don't mean to bang your car.

6)My tendency to express is 8/9 which mean that whatever you ask me, i will tell you. That may include busybody, i guess.

7)I'm weird. I love both slow and fast working enviroment. Even the counselor was abit worries about my condition.

8)My confident level is very very low. I do afraid to present in front of the class but just too sleepy and forget to be nervous.

9)I can be a good consultant in future. Yeah!!!!!! $$$$$$$

10)I'm not as happy-go-lucky and carefree as what i'm usually. Most of the time, i'm an anti social. Thats why i may need to consult a counselor if my worry and stress level is way too high ;p

WTH?

I realised that i have low EQ. Thats all. I'm searching for a way to recycle and reduce my pressures and burdens. Any ideas, anyone? ;p

Oh my god!!!!!!

My flame of frustration and rage burst up after i go through my friend's blog. Come on, people nowadays is just manipulate and implant fear and so-called respect on religion. If the true purpose of a religion is used to control and brain-washed fellow believers, then what is the point of believing and respecting it? Going through history book enlighten me alot, especially when you go through all the wars, discrimination, brutal judgements, and much more, thanks to the word 'religion'. England and France (if im not mistaken) are battling to prove that their religion is the only one. The terrorists are bombing and killing and chopping and acting as if these bastards are born to fulfil the duty for their religion. Here, religion is a sensitive issue whereby no one can discuss or critic on it (YA RITE, Fu(k ya!!!!!)

Religion has been misuse (misguide) by many leaders across the world. They just use religion to control and make sure that the citizen are listening to them. Come on, dudes or leaders, it is a shame, please just stop acting as if you are Fu(king holy if you are not. My line again, Just be yourself.

Nabi Mohamad never force anyone to join Islam. Christian is emphasising on love, peace and harmony. If everyone that has their own believe in their own religion and following it with eyes opened, this world will be a better place to stay.

Enough with stating how good you are as a follower. Do you really know what is your religion about? Dont misuse it. Religion is something wise and holy and great if you really know how to use it.

I'm sick enough to see how Mumbai get attacked,
Sick enough to see how Bali get bombed,
Sick enough to see how Madrid get bombed,
Sick enough to see how people in Iraq suffer just to survive,
Sick enough to see how people worship god and religion as a symbol of battle and war,
Sick enough to see how innocent people still praying for peace and other people are trying to eliminate peace.

Shallowing the whole bible,
Hiding inside the temple,
Saying all the wise words,
Praying 5 times a day,
Acting as a kind follower,
It is just a piece, or many pieces of shit bloody crap.
If you have the wrong mentality.

If you are doing what god asked you to do,
We will never get punished by Him.
See what the world is now,
If you dont wanna play a part in making it better,
Please dont make it worse.

Advice to myself

It is hard to know that sometime, you are just not good in something. You can try very hard to master in something, yet you are still remain blur. You just don't seem to get it though you spent days, cracking your head, thinking about it. Don't blame yourself and don't compare you and other with it better than you. They just seem to have that in their DNA. What can you do?

Everyone is unique and yet we are spending time to imitate other who we think is better than us and never realise how unique you can be if you spent the same amount time to upgrade yourself. Everyone has his own talents, either visible or invisible, as well as his own weaknesses. The only reason, according to Buddha (philosophy thingy ya, don't play play) we are suffering is because we have desire. Well, we are all suffering, thinking how to boost our weaknesses and neglect our strength. Sound funny and stupid? Well, we are.

We just need to admit that in certain field, we are just not that good (well, just not too good to compare with the pro) or totally sucks with it. It is ok, as if everyone is perfect. Some of them just trying so hard to capture all the attention around on him and he just don't know that he is keep putting his weaknesses on stage, which make him look worse.

We may just try very hard, too hard till we expect rewards out from our hardwork. But, world is just not a fair place. However, be proud to blow on your own trumpet and how hard you work on it. Trust me, someone will still notice it.

Instead of spending time and effort, investing on a wrong field, it is wise to put all your eggs on the correct basket. Just be yourself. Soemtime, what you think you want to do is different with what you can do. Be dare to dream and if it fails, at least you have tried and you are definitely better that many cowards that hide his ideas and action in his brain.

Just be yourself and proud to be yourself ;p

College For Dummies

This is the list on what you need to do to survive in college or university nowadays; P

1) Don’t do your ass last minute.
I know it sound so 'duh' but then trust me, if you think last minute crap works, wait till you have 20 essays to do in last 3 days (personal experience; p)

2) Don’t log into msn while you are doing your ass.
Whether you entertain them or not, eventually you will get annoyed and ending forget to do your ass because you are busy annoying other.

3) Don’t get and use a cheap laptop.
Your lappie is very important. So if you plan to get a laptop, get a good one. You will get my point if you experience lag and hang while you are doing your stuff.

4) Don’t act like hero.
If you need help, ask!!!!! If you need to beg your lecturer for info, do so. They are the one that control your mark, your life as well. No choice la. ;p

5) Do learn how to type faster.
If you are those unfortunate that can’t type fast or can’t type with two hands, congrats!!!! You will just need to spend twice the amount of time to complete a task.

6) Do sleep, rest, play (Enjoy!!!!) if you can.
You will miss the day when you can lay on the bed doing nothing while doing yr ass in the middle of the night and even the ghosts are too sleepy to wander around.

7) Do have a bunch of friends that are helpful( and avoid the helpless and hopeless one ).
You are no longer living in an isolated island. Friends will be part of the ‘strategy’ to survive in college. Treasure your friends, ya!!!

8) Do pray hard that your birthday do not fall on the day where you need to do all your ass.
I’m a living example. I have to reject all my dates on that day and hug my books instead being hug by chicks and friends. And do remember to get yourself a cake in this important day. (The following picture may cause discomfort to some audience)





Homemake cake with candle (toilet paper roll and pencil) with book!!! Not edible, btw. Happy Birthday, Edward ;p

Top in my song list

Journey - 张韶涵

曲：Corrinne May 词：Corrinne May

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
oh to you

(It is just so nice. Ask me if you want this song, FOC ;p)

My Organs

I was born perfectly physically, unlike alot of other unfortunate god's children. Yet, i realise that i am not using what He gives me well. All of my senses are not functioning to its fulllest potential.

My eyes, i never use them to observe and see how people around me act. I been neglecting my beloved family and friends millions of time. Thanks for still be with me. I am so blind that i cant even notice how hard you are trying to send me the message ,"I need you"

My ears, i never use them to listen to other's story. Most of the time when someone is talking to me, i tend to stay away, stay away from responsibilty. I always think that i'm a good listener before i realise that i don't even know what the hell are you talking and crying in front of me.

My hands, i never use them to lift someone or help someone. I am such a jerk, a selfish jerk that will try to offer help, at most of the time, only in the worst stage. I am assuming that everyone will be like me, who don't like to being offer help, or ask for help.

My legs, i always walk in a fast pace, leaving those who are walking along with me. Another act of selfishness, never realise how hard everyone around me try to cope with my speed. I prefer to be alone, wasting no time on something that is not important to me.

My heart, a stone heart, will never have room to fill other's feelings and thoughts. I never like to admit my own mistake and in most of the time, my bloodless heart will just keep pumping excuses. Will definitely die iof heart problem soon ;P

Not to forget, my mouth, one full of junks and poisons that able to pierce through someone's heart and leave a scar on their sensitive's heart. Honesty is not always the best policy. There are just too many problem coming out from my mouth.

Hahahahahahahaha,

Well, think again on how you use all of your organs that God gives. If you realise that you are just a jerk like me, maybe shutting down your organs will be the best way to stop spreading the virus that will causes problem. Will reborn very soon by shutting every single part of my body to let them self-rejuvenate in hoping to be a better one. Sorry if any single part of my body hurts you before. You are free to do anything to me after my reborn. (Please come with an appointment, i dont expect slaps and kicks when i'm not ready for it) ;P

From my small-eyed friend ;P

Sorry - 方大同


当我回头 发现是我
伤你最多 欠你最多
曾经拥有 一种幸福
当你流泪 还问你到底 想要什么

I'm so sorry 我现在知道你伤心
有同样的心情
I'm so sorry 我现在终于能明白
当我为爱付出 一样得到伤害
我才看得见 你的爱是那么深
最深的爱 原来最沉默

爱的温柔 爱的残酷
爱的自私 爱的自由
爱的背叛 爱的挣扎
这些我都走过 你的痛我现在也都有

I'm so sorry 我现在知道你伤心
有同样的心情
I'm so sorry 我现在终于能明白
当我为爱付出 一样得到伤害
我才看得见 你的爱是那么深
最深的爱 原来最沉默

再过了好久好久 当我们又再相遇
当爱 也许已经不存在
我是否可以 再和你坐一起
一切都不在意
想要告诉你 对你的伤害 yeah
没有说对不起 没有说对不起

I'm so sorry 我现在知道你伤心
有同样的心情
I'm so sorry 我现在终于能明白
我也为爱付出 也得到爱的伤害
我也才明白 你的爱是那么深
伤你多深 oh 想要对你说

Final destination

Well, i was surrounded by many emo and moody stories recently, and it deeply affecting me. I am already get knocked out by my studies, and these bad feelings are definitely not being welcome to my life.

I still remember how happy to be at my hometown, laying on my bed, singing all my songs, letting my mind wander, in some occasion, thinking about that big-eyed girl that i always wanted to make friend with but failed.

What makes it so hard to do all this simple tasks again, now?

Is it because i'm getting too serious with my current stuff? I can realise how far my imagination, my happiness, my naive, my creativity, my simplicity stay at while i'm moving forward, day by day, to reach so-called my final destination.

I begin to mediatate, yet it makes me feel worse instead of more relax.

I begin to get back to the starting point of my pathway, giving myself a solid reason to keep moving.

What will i get when i study hard?
Good grade?
Good grade in exchange for good job?
Good job in exchange for good money?
Good money in exchange for good life, with all the luxuries that i dreamt for?
Then?
I reach my final destination
What i wanna do then?
Waiting for the time to die?
That's all my life is?
Thats all?

Funny
We were told to have targets and goals,
and yet things change all the time.

Well, thats life, thats all in my life now ;P

Silence

I'm been thinking too much. Miss the time where i'm more dumb. At least less problem, less dilemma. Been trying very hard to smile, finding very easy to cry, where usually the opposite thing happens more frequent. I guess im growing up now, growing up in a hard way. ;p
(So sorry for being rude, the time will pass soon where i will be who i'm again)

Pre-camwhore training

Some basic training here. Enjoy your weekend, there will be a big battle to come soon. *Earthquake!!!!!*

Stereotype on male

Here I'm speaking behalf of all the males (either boy or man, to be more general) that were under a harsh life, treated as if we are all born with super-natural powers. Gals out there, time for us to make complains. Just read and think again on how you treated your father, brother, boyfriend, friend and even your male puppy.

I realise that in this era, the gap between two genders are getting closer and closer. Thats a good thing cos equality is somthing that everyone of us should have. To protect themselves, they have so called human right, making sure that they can actually stand up when they are treated unfairly. We have right for female, for animals, for kids, but do we have such thing for male? (I dont know, please tell me if we do have such thing. Thanks)

To our dearest darlings, we are as sensitive and weak like you. (God is fair, no one is perfect.). Just because we are phsyically stronger, that doesnt make we are mentally and emotionally stronger. Worse, because of this, we are required to do all the chores that obviously make us stupid. Personally, i dont mind but dont order us as if we are born to carry out all the tasks that you dont wanna do.

You always complains that we, male are not caring, always neglect you,always complain and critic about you, always bully and fool you around and etc................

Ya, but you realises that you are doing the same thing. ASSUMING, we are male. "Guys no need one" , "Cos you are a guy ma", "Guy's job"

Well, dont get pissed off with my piece of crap here. I have this in my head for years (Cos i got 1 mom and 2 sis to serve) and the article that i read that talk how bad a guy can be really trigger my anger.

I just wanna make my point clear here, Everyone is equal. If you want someone to treat you well and with respect, please do the same thing as well. Remember, dont take anything for granted. Making us a slave will obviously make male rebel more. And, for those who write in female magazine, please do write some positive value that me, male have. We are not good for nothing. (We dont write these in male magazine, just be considerate ya. ;P)

Money did Matter!!!!

I am born with high alert on number. I hate math (honesty) but anyway getting high grade for it. Like other teens out there, money matter= no matter. However, time to wake up and be alert how your money evaporate.

A barrel of crude oil is going under US60 now. Here, we suppose to 'follow' the market price, like other countries. But then,......... ;P. Going under RM1.92?? Haram tak mungkin la

Lending money to help company? How much you need? RM50 Billion? No problem. No need to repay, no need receipt, no need nothing. Our government is very kind to our citizen, dont you think so?? ;P

Reducing income tax? Sounds like a good idea in the first glance, rite? But what happen to your future? To be brutally honest, that mere percentage doesn't help alot ;P

Rebate for your car? Ya, after charging you like hell, giving you hundreds is sufficiant to keep your mouth and wallet shut? Well, not for me ;p

Think that food is still cheap? Try this in MCD. Dont you think the burger is getting smaller and smaller. People in our college is damn smart. They will overcharge you for every single thing that they sell to you (For charity ma ;P)

Government also have a lot of projects. Good, that helps people by providing jobs. But then, how long that a government plan last? Oh ya, Our government like to build all kind of monuments such as circuit for our friendly neighbourhood, mat rempit and a high tech toilet which will make sure you will done all your business in 20 min

The best job in Malaysia that never get bother by money crisis will be

1) Government 'servant' = They are government's servant and we are the government's servant's servant.

2)Begger = They beg you for money, either trade with some kinda of useless junk items (Overcharge again!!!) or act like one of the three blind mices. Worse, they no longer recieve amount which is below RM1. See, even begger reject your 50 cent!!!

3)Criminal (Jerks and @$$holes falls into this category as well)= They act like Ghost Rider, 'rempiting' all around, performing the same old school m0ther f!@King action and worse attacking pedestians. Not forget to mention, all the drug addicters, thieves, snatchers, DIY bomb makers, kidnapers, crappers that make all false claim regarding on every single crisis we have here and road barberian. F@#k all of you here!!!!!!! Take this!!!!!

In conclusion (Mrs Yap said must end every essay with a nice conclusion)

Please dont CATCH me!!!!! Thanks :D

Start with how I'm Started

Hahahahahahaha

A weird way to start my first post in my first blog

'Happy Birthday, Mom!!!!!'


Yup, without my mom, i'm nothing

Thanks for everything that you have give me for the past 19 years.
I never actually said this to you personally,
But then you know me best, i'm those who will keep my feelings and thoughts inside me
I love you and thank you.... :)

(Owe you one meal.....)

Both of us share the same gene, 'not a natural poser' gene

Love you, mom. Lets cut the same hairstyle again!!!