Final destination

Well, i was surrounded by many emo and moody stories recently, and it deeply affecting me. I am already get knocked out by my studies, and these bad feelings are definitely not being welcome to my life.

I still remember how happy to be at my hometown, laying on my bed, singing all my songs, letting my mind wander, in some occasion, thinking about that big-eyed girl that i always wanted to make friend with but failed.

What makes it so hard to do all this simple tasks again, now?

Is it because i'm getting too serious with my current stuff? I can realise how far my imagination, my happiness, my naive, my creativity, my simplicity stay at while i'm moving forward, day by day, to reach so-called my final destination.

I begin to mediatate, yet it makes me feel worse instead of more relax.

I begin to get back to the starting point of my pathway, giving myself a solid reason to keep moving.

What will i get when i study hard?
Good grade?
Good grade in exchange for good job?
Good job in exchange for good money?
Good money in exchange for good life, with all the luxuries that i dreamt for?
Then?
I reach my final destination
What i wanna do then?
Waiting for the time to die?
That's all my life is?
Thats all?

Funny
We were told to have targets and goals,
and yet things change all the time.

Well, thats life, thats all in my life now ;P