Nobody understand you

I heard and saw millions of people stating that 'Nobody understand me'. Funny, these are the people that are hunger for a pair of ears, so that they can vomit out everything out. Yet, these are also the same bunch of people that keep ignoring and denying the fact that they have unsolved problems, when someone offers and wish to unlock the wired issues. But, these are the same people that assuming and hoping someone will understand them without any sort of verbal communication.

Ironic ya? ;P

On one side, you don't wanna chat or disclose, but on another side, you wish that someone will listen to you, lend you their ears and shoulders. Basically, nobody- including yourself- understand you. People can't read your mind, obviously, especially when you can't read your own mind. True friends are someone you can share everything, good bad and ugly, with but that only if you wanna share. If you don't bother to share and voice it out, no point having bunch of true friends around you. Same, still nobody understand you

2012 in progress

Today, i witnessed something that doesn't sound logical. Come one, heavy thunder when the sky is still bright, storm with tiny ice cubes, that knocked my lovely car and trees and plants lying around the streets and on vehicles. Just imagine yourself in 2012 movie scene, and trust me, part of it is fun and exciting, another part, well, nothing is impossible.

Well, if tropical countries like Malaysia can have hail storm, i bet we can started to expect more and more disasters coming to hit us. Earth, the only habitat, is turning into living hell, thanks to us, so-called the smartest living being, so-called the ruler of this planet.

I have no idea whether 2012 will be our doomsday, yet i have no difficulties to imagine what happen 2 years from now. I will be another typical supporting actor like in the '2012' movie, running and screaming around before killed by a 'flying' trunk, and i'm absolutely fine with it. I don't expect myself to be living past 70 years old.

Guess, i should take life more serious now. Cincai kira, assuming 2012 is true, I (we) will have another 2 years time before everything reformat. Time to do something that is significant to community, those who i know and definitely to myself. At least, i don't waste my remaining time and only crying, regretting and yet, stay static, planning everything but do nothing.

Gigolo-going-to- be

Thanks to the event, i'm chatting with everyone in my FB friends list as if i know them for ages. Dammit, i feel like i'm a gigolo, spending time and effort to start a conversation with my customers for money/intention. And the funniest part, i thought she was A, realizing that she is B after 1 hour of ice-breaking (trying to be as if we are very close) sessions. Shit!!!!!

Second type, basically ignore me, or linking my conversation to all the previous memories, i mean bad one. All of a sudden, i become a jerk to them. I feel like i'm an insurance agent, trying to hard sell and promote my ideas and products (which is partly true). Gosh, it is so embarrassing, especially when she said 'Dear' and 'Let's go out for dinner one day'. Holy cow, i'm a gigolo now!!!!!!

(p/s - i never realized that i have the ability to chat with strangers on random stuff. Guess that is the lesson one in 'How to tackle a girl, For dummies, nerds and introverts'. Should apply this technique in clubs and pubs, not to beg people to join my event ;p)

射手座の男生 (Stereotype on Sagittarius)

p/s (The title is The Sagittarius Guys, i always think that most zodiac review have labeled sag. guys as playboy, which obviously those who i know including me, are not. However, i have to say that i agreed with most of the part in this articles, beside the playboy part ;p)

射手座的男人兴趣很多，涉猎很广泛，但恐怕每一样都不会研究得很彻底。正因为他的兴趣广泛，跟很多人都可能有交集，因此他会有许多不同类型的朋友。有的朋友陪他聊政治，有的陪他打球，有的跟他一块作生意。他很忙，很少有射手座的男人会给人一种闲着没事做的感觉。尤其当他突然对什么新鲜事物发生兴趣的时侯，可能全心投入好一阵子，其它的事情（包括你）全被暂时抛在脑后去了。

　　当你刚开始跟一位射手座男人交往时，会有一段蜜月期——你是最让他感兴趣的人。之后，你是否能让他保持热度，就得看你的本事了，因为让一个射手座的男人把心思长期专注于谈情说爱上，的确是很困难的事。

　　他是个绝对的乐观主义，心中有无数远大的理想，却经常容易忽略眼前的问题，因此常在加速向前冲的时侯，一不小心就栽到水沟里去了，在他身边的女人偶尔提醒一下他的粗心是很好的，但如果在他对你高谈阔论他远大计划时，泼他一盆冷水，那就真是让他讨厌极了。其实，你真的不必太过担之他的“安危”，因为乐观的射手座男子，并不容易被一些小挫败击倒，反而事实的教训会帮助他成长，让他下一次小心点。

　　很多射手座的男人都有点“不信邪”，当你严厉的告诉他什么事不可行的时侯，他却偏要试一下才甘心。我不知道你碰到这种情况了没有？如果有，请千万不要落井下石，在旁边说风凉话，你当心他会恼羞成怒哦！最好换一种方式，你可以说：“你做的比我原先预计的好多了，你真有一套！下一次只要把…改一下，保证万无一失。”

　　他肯定会觉得你太够意思，太了解他了。射手座的男人很少真的觉得沮丧。万一不幸发生这种情况，当然就是你表现的时侯啰！

　　很多人说射手座的男人花心，其实我倒觉得应该说他是很喜欢跟很多女人真心交往，花言巧语的欺骗不是他的方法。(Ya, true, if i'm a playboy, i won't be single for 20 years) 前面我就说过，他是很容易与人发生交集的，对女生当然也是一样，一旦他感觉跟某个女生有些投契的地方，他就会很愉快，很真诚的付出他的友谊和感情。其实射手座的男人愈成熟，就愈希望找到一个真正与他心灵相投的伴侣，只可惜他们多半都不是细细观察，慢慢投入的类型，因此总是很容易开始，很容易失望，于是很容易结束，射手座的男人很少会存心始乱终弃的。(overgeneralized)

　　就像是一壸茶倒满了很多杯子，你能说哪一杯不是茶吗？对每一个人他都很真诚，如想要真正拥有他，只有把自己变成个超级大杯子，让他把所有的茶全倒进来啰！

　　首先，你要兴致勃勃的听他说远大的计划，偶尔提醒他一些细节，让他惊讶你的智能。

　　第二，你要会陪他玩，多数射手座男子对户外运动都很有兴趣，当他带你去参加社交场合时，千万别摆张老k脸。

　　第三，射手座男人很爱跟朋友辩论，你要很感兴趣的听，然后在适当时机帮个腔，使他理论立于不败之地。更重要的是，千万不要限制他的自由。对于多数射手座的男人来说，自由是他们的宝贝，“不自由毋宁死”，他爱你是真的，愿意和你厮守终生也是真的，但是他不会因此放弃他追求自由的权利。射手座的男人，绝不是可以被拴在腰带上的丈夫，这一点你一定不要忘记。

　　射手座的男往往不会详细的向你报告行踪，尤其是事前，他更不会一副征求你批准的态度。如果你东问西问，他很有翻脸的可能。

　　你愈给他自由，他愈坦白。(It happens to everyone)

　　有时侯射手座男人的直率也会让人有点受不了，他的直肠子有时会伤你的心，有时会让你下不了台。如果想要愉快的相处，你必须学习适应，而且欣赏他不会拐弯的坦率性格。(true, ..... and sorry)

　　当然你也有自由发展你的世界。他通常忙碌的没时间去限制你。想要欺瞒一个射手座的男人，是件很容易的事，但是如果让他发现，将会造成无法弥补的裂痕， “真诚”是他最重视的相处之道。他会尊重你的自由一如尊重他己的一样，你会有很大的空间发挥自己的事业和兴趣。但是我仍然建议你多方面尽量配合他，否则他什么时侯掉进了别人的情网你都不知道！

Behind the scene

I just don't understand why everyone is working so hard, always trying to be the best and sacrifice everything in life to reach the top of the mountain. Is that so pathetic to be second or the unknown one? Once, my friend told me ' If everyone is going to be the next leader, then who is the follower? ' . My own version, 'If everyone is going to be rich, then everything will be freaking expensive'.

I received a offer to lead a team in a newly developed company from Singapore. It may sounds interesting, a once in a life time offer, but for me, i can imagine the scenes of me doing unlimited works, 'shot' by various bosses for various reasons, leading a team that i barely know, unable to balance between study and working, and worst, lost my precious and also one in a life time college sweet memories. Come on, college student is about doing ass last minute, hunting girls, eating all the time and cam-whoring.

I'm always a good tactician, never a good general or emperor. Ya, it is true that no one really knows those who worked behind the scene, but thanks to them, the performers can perform without burden and worry. Besides, i only know that generals and emperors were hunted during invasion, but not tactician. And guess what, even these so-called generals and emperors begged for tactician's advices and assists. Between life and honor, i choose life.

See, if everyone have this perception, able to be the second, or those who are hidden, there will be less competitions, less arguments, less frictions, less wars, less complains, less problems and definitely less pressure. Why not? ;p