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Journey - 张韶涵

曲：Corrinne May 词：Corrinne May

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
oh to you

(It is just so nice. Ask me if you want this song, FOC ;p)

My Organs

I was born perfectly physically, unlike alot of other unfortunate god's children. Yet, i realise that i am not using what He gives me well. All of my senses are not functioning to its fulllest potential.

My eyes, i never use them to observe and see how people around me act. I been neglecting my beloved family and friends millions of time. Thanks for still be with me. I am so blind that i cant even notice how hard you are trying to send me the message ,"I need you"

My ears, i never use them to listen to other's story. Most of the time when someone is talking to me, i tend to stay away, stay away from responsibilty. I always think that i'm a good listener before i realise that i don't even know what the hell are you talking and crying in front of me.

My hands, i never use them to lift someone or help someone. I am such a jerk, a selfish jerk that will try to offer help, at most of the time, only in the worst stage. I am assuming that everyone will be like me, who don't like to being offer help, or ask for help.

My legs, i always walk in a fast pace, leaving those who are walking along with me. Another act of selfishness, never realise how hard everyone around me try to cope with my speed. I prefer to be alone, wasting no time on something that is not important to me.

My heart, a stone heart, will never have room to fill other's feelings and thoughts. I never like to admit my own mistake and in most of the time, my bloodless heart will just keep pumping excuses. Will definitely die iof heart problem soon ;P

Not to forget, my mouth, one full of junks and poisons that able to pierce through someone's heart and leave a scar on their sensitive's heart. Honesty is not always the best policy. There are just too many problem coming out from my mouth.

Hahahahahahahaha,

Well, think again on how you use all of your organs that God gives. If you realise that you are just a jerk like me, maybe shutting down your organs will be the best way to stop spreading the virus that will causes problem. Will reborn very soon by shutting every single part of my body to let them self-rejuvenate in hoping to be a better one. Sorry if any single part of my body hurts you before. You are free to do anything to me after my reborn. (Please come with an appointment, i dont expect slaps and kicks when i'm not ready for it) ;P

From my small-eyed friend ;P

Sorry - 方大同


当我回头 发现是我
伤你最多 欠你最多
曾经拥有 一种幸福
当你流泪 还问你到底 想要什么

I'm so sorry 我现在知道你伤心
有同样的心情
I'm so sorry 我现在终于能明白
当我为爱付出 一样得到伤害
我才看得见 你的爱是那么深
最深的爱 原来最沉默

爱的温柔 爱的残酷
爱的自私 爱的自由
爱的背叛 爱的挣扎
这些我都走过 你的痛我现在也都有

I'm so sorry 我现在知道你伤心
有同样的心情
I'm so sorry 我现在终于能明白
当我为爱付出 一样得到伤害
我才看得见 你的爱是那么深
最深的爱 原来最沉默

再过了好久好久 当我们又再相遇
当爱 也许已经不存在
我是否可以 再和你坐一起
一切都不在意
想要告诉你 对你的伤害 yeah
没有说对不起 没有说对不起

I'm so sorry 我现在知道你伤心
有同样的心情
I'm so sorry 我现在终于能明白
我也为爱付出 也得到爱的伤害
我也才明白 你的爱是那么深
伤你多深 oh 想要对你说

Final destination

Well, i was surrounded by many emo and moody stories recently, and it deeply affecting me. I am already get knocked out by my studies, and these bad feelings are definitely not being welcome to my life.

I still remember how happy to be at my hometown, laying on my bed, singing all my songs, letting my mind wander, in some occasion, thinking about that big-eyed girl that i always wanted to make friend with but failed.

What makes it so hard to do all this simple tasks again, now?

Is it because i'm getting too serious with my current stuff? I can realise how far my imagination, my happiness, my naive, my creativity, my simplicity stay at while i'm moving forward, day by day, to reach so-called my final destination.

I begin to mediatate, yet it makes me feel worse instead of more relax.

I begin to get back to the starting point of my pathway, giving myself a solid reason to keep moving.

What will i get when i study hard?
Good grade?
Good grade in exchange for good job?
Good job in exchange for good money?
Good money in exchange for good life, with all the luxuries that i dreamt for?
Then?
I reach my final destination
What i wanna do then?
Waiting for the time to die?
That's all my life is?
Thats all?

Funny
We were told to have targets and goals,
and yet things change all the time.

Well, thats life, thats all in my life now ;P

Silence

I'm been thinking too much. Miss the time where i'm more dumb. At least less problem, less dilemma. Been trying very hard to smile, finding very easy to cry, where usually the opposite thing happens more frequent. I guess im growing up now, growing up in a hard way. ;p
(So sorry for being rude, the time will pass soon where i will be who i'm again)

Pre-camwhore training

Some basic training here. Enjoy your weekend, there will be a big battle to come soon. *Earthquake!!!!!*

Stereotype on male

Here I'm speaking behalf of all the males (either boy or man, to be more general) that were under a harsh life, treated as if we are all born with super-natural powers. Gals out there, time for us to make complains. Just read and think again on how you treated your father, brother, boyfriend, friend and even your male puppy.

I realise that in this era, the gap between two genders are getting closer and closer. Thats a good thing cos equality is somthing that everyone of us should have. To protect themselves, they have so called human right, making sure that they can actually stand up when they are treated unfairly. We have right for female, for animals, for kids, but do we have such thing for male? (I dont know, please tell me if we do have such thing. Thanks)

To our dearest darlings, we are as sensitive and weak like you. (God is fair, no one is perfect.). Just because we are phsyically stronger, that doesnt make we are mentally and emotionally stronger. Worse, because of this, we are required to do all the chores that obviously make us stupid. Personally, i dont mind but dont order us as if we are born to carry out all the tasks that you dont wanna do.

You always complains that we, male are not caring, always neglect you,always complain and critic about you, always bully and fool you around and etc................

Ya, but you realises that you are doing the same thing. ASSUMING, we are male. "Guys no need one" , "Cos you are a guy ma", "Guy's job"

Well, dont get pissed off with my piece of crap here. I have this in my head for years (Cos i got 1 mom and 2 sis to serve) and the article that i read that talk how bad a guy can be really trigger my anger.

I just wanna make my point clear here, Everyone is equal. If you want someone to treat you well and with respect, please do the same thing as well. Remember, dont take anything for granted. Making us a slave will obviously make male rebel more. And, for those who write in female magazine, please do write some positive value that me, male have. We are not good for nothing. (We dont write these in male magazine, just be considerate ya. ;P)