FOC

Just face it. All human like free stuffs. However, ironically, we all feel skeptical whenever being offered for something that is free. It is pathetic. Due to the corrupted and polluted morality, we all tend to shut off our empathy and bring out the claw of defensiveness. Simple example, if one comes to you and give you a bookmark, will you accept it without doubt?

We can put the blame on the scam and marketing tactic that continuously erasing our empathy or trust. Yet, ask yourself, we do tend to take many things fro granted. We tend to treasure what we fight for, with sweat and blood. We love free stuff, but we don't treasure free stuff.

Once in Bangkok, i came across the 'Free Hug' event. This is something unique that i doubt you can see in Malaysia. Ignoring the fact that you cannot simply hug one in public in this conservative country, if there is such event exist in Malaysia, well, public might be just take this as another marketing booth for some kind of event. The pioneer of this event was in a despair mood before a random grandma hugged him. He then realized how powerful a hug, which is effortless and free, can be. Hence, he started this activity and now it is all around the world.

Only when we lose it, or maybe we need to spend more effort on it, will we pay more attention on the free stuffs around us. I never realized how grateful i should be until i hurt my leg. Imagine you can't sweat, can't have any direct contact with water, dust and anything dirty. I will definitely swim and jog once i healed.

Nothing comes into your life as a-FOC- item. You do earn it, deserve it. Maybe it is a blessing or pure lucky. Don't walk around telling others how much you miss it when you lost it. Just because something is there for you without any cost, doesn't mean it is not as valuable as any other things that you have ;p

(My first free hug experience. She is a girl. I'm very sure ;p)

Haunted by unresolved history

The only solution to solve a matter thoroughly is when you face it, despite all the obstacles, the fear, the pain, the humiliation and the anxiety. Of course, it would be easier if you can just avoid or escape, but the same matter will haunt you. Such nightmares are capable to drain one's soul, creating void and emptiness, only to make one running further away from the matter.Brave enough to face it and no doubt, you will be rewarded ;p

Opss, Mistake

Learn to accept mistakes and you will realize that the world is actually not as bad as you think it is. Besides, some mistakes are really worthy as a joke. So, laugh at it and then move on ;p

State of Peace

Peace is a state when you can sit down, do nothing, look around trivial matters, laugh about it and finally, appreciate the current feeling during such state. External reinforcements can helps you to get into this state. But if that is the case, maybe you are not peaceful enough to be in peace ;p

Blossom!!!!

All the beautiful things in life require you to wait. Unfortunately, most of us are so comfortable with shortcuts to make things bloom faster. This is when you will miss the moment of expectation, hope, determination, faith and gratitude on what you want. That's because if you can own it instantly; hence, why bother to wait?

Catching the next train

I always think timing is not a big issue. I think as long as i'm in control, i can forge whatever 'timing' i want for a matter to take place. That's until you are almost late for the last call. There are certain moments in life when you missed it, you missed it. (Train ride will be a good example)

Once one of my buddies told me how important timing is in life, i think it is just an excuse for being a coward in life. I guess i have to admit, well, you are right. You don't try to grill steak with the remaining heat on the stove. You just missed the best moment to grill ;p

To Edward

Dear Edward,

Congratulation for surviving another extra year. Well, i have to say you have a adventurous year, as usual, so you should really thanks God for all the limbs and muscles that are still attached at where they supposed to be.

And congratulation for growing up and turning more mature. No more playing tantrum, playing pranks, acting childish or blindly. Most importantly, you know how to listen to painful yet honest advices. You learn how to suppress your ego, control your desire, cry when you feel hurt, smile when necessary and most importantly, laugh loud proudly.

And congratulation for learning how to love those who deserved your love. You learn how to devote and stay strong, despite obstacles and loneliness. And after so many years, you finally obtained the emotion of feeling love and heartbreak. And yes, finally when someone is sharing their love story, i can show my empathy.

And congratulation for staying and standing strong when you faced thorns and stones in life. You learn to trust your friends. You learn to dependent and look for shoulders when you are tired. You learn to accept other's assistance without doubt. You learn to climb over your own defensive wall. And most importantly, you finally mastered the art of letting go and picking up less burden.

And congratulation for learning how to appreciate mistakes, imperfection, regrets and simplicity. You celebrate for every single achievements. You sing and dance along when you heard tunes that you are familiar with. You sit down, feeling relax while looking at flowers. You learn how to deep breath when you feel stress. And most importantly, you learn to do things slower and spend more time with your beloved.

Other might not realized the change that you have going through but trust me, no one knows the fear and anxiety that you been through better than me. And for you to accomplish what you been avoiding is already an accomplishment. Congratulation for every single mission that you have accomplish. Toasts for a changed Edward, for a better Edward. Happy birthday ;p