Holy-days

Ahh, finally the sound of relief emerges after weeks of hard work. Holiday is certainly holy-day for me. I sleep, eat, play, hop and online (basically doing nothing important, just to waste time.)

Well, if you have went through all these hard days, you will eventually realise that simple days where you lay down on your bed, doing nothing can be a great thing to do, especially when i don't always spend time at my hometown.

I think it is true. We spend our whole life, hunting for fame and fortune, which probably more that what we need and during the process, many other beautiful scenery are abandoned. Just like when we are driving, we tend to miss alot of scenery around us that we never realise how breath-taking there are.

Enjoy while you can and this is what i'm doing now. Need to recharge before the next sem starts. Long live, holidays!!!!!!

A Lesson in Saloon

I was forced to cut my hair again. The first thing i need to decide is to choose the correct saloon where the hairstyler is good enough to cut and style my hair. Second, i have to decide whether i want to wash my hair before i have to choose and decide which hairstyler and which style that i like and suit me in the same time. In that long- suffering process, i have to choose which magizine to read and which session in the magazine that i wish to read. In this mere 1 hour, i have make more decisions that i would make if i'm at college.

Life is simply significant because you learn things through experiences, either good or bad. Even a simple task or in a limited time, you may just figure out something that you may never know about yourself. Thats the importance of knowing yourself. Mimicking someone is pretty useless, unless you know the right one to mimic.

Making decision is not easy, especially when you are given a great responsiblity (or burden). However, before thinking of how to change the world, one should change himself first. If you can't decide and do the right thing for yourself, the chances are you will not able to choose a right deal for the other. Stop thinking of changing the whole world, changing all the inequality, dicriminations, class difference, social class and all this hellya problems if you are one of the millions that only talk/crap but taking no action. ;p

A night at hospital

It is just another night without moon and stars shining,
However, it will portrait a different scene when you are staring it in hospital.
It is just funny to know that health is wealth,
Only when you are no longer as healthy as you are.

Its been a tiring night, or week
When someone you know are becoming weaker and weaker
The aura seem to be spreading to everyone around me,
And that includes me.

2 more days before my final,
Yet, i really can't find any slot to sit down and study.
It sounds like an excuse,
Yet, that's the fact.

Vienna Test Result

Trivia about myself that i don't even realise

1) My IQ score is 114. WAY TOO HIGH!!!!!!

2)My long-term memory score is 95/100. I guess if they checked my short-term memory, it will damn low.

3)Inside me, i'm a sadist. I'm one of the potential serial killer, terrorist or psychopathy.

4)I'm not as cold blooded that i think i'm. I'm actually pretty nice ;p

5) There are reason why my parking sucks. I'm bad in visualizing. Mom, i don't mean to bang your car.

6)My tendency to express is 8/9 which mean that whatever you ask me, i will tell you. That may include busybody, i guess.

7)I'm weird. I love both slow and fast working enviroment. Even the counselor was abit worries about my condition.

8)My confident level is very very low. I do afraid to present in front of the class but just too sleepy and forget to be nervous.

9)I can be a good consultant in future. Yeah!!!!!! $$$$$$$

10)I'm not as happy-go-lucky and carefree as what i'm usually. Most of the time, i'm an anti social. Thats why i may need to consult a counselor if my worry and stress level is way too high ;p

WTH?

I realised that i have low EQ. Thats all. I'm searching for a way to recycle and reduce my pressures and burdens. Any ideas, anyone? ;p

Oh my god!!!!!!

My flame of frustration and rage burst up after i go through my friend's blog. Come on, people nowadays is just manipulate and implant fear and so-called respect on religion. If the true purpose of a religion is used to control and brain-washed fellow believers, then what is the point of believing and respecting it? Going through history book enlighten me alot, especially when you go through all the wars, discrimination, brutal judgements, and much more, thanks to the word 'religion'. England and France (if im not mistaken) are battling to prove that their religion is the only one. The terrorists are bombing and killing and chopping and acting as if these bastards are born to fulfil the duty for their religion. Here, religion is a sensitive issue whereby no one can discuss or critic on it (YA RITE, Fu(k ya!!!!!)

Religion has been misuse (misguide) by many leaders across the world. They just use religion to control and make sure that the citizen are listening to them. Come on, dudes or leaders, it is a shame, please just stop acting as if you are Fu(king holy if you are not. My line again, Just be yourself.

Nabi Mohamad never force anyone to join Islam. Christian is emphasising on love, peace and harmony. If everyone that has their own believe in their own religion and following it with eyes opened, this world will be a better place to stay.

Enough with stating how good you are as a follower. Do you really know what is your religion about? Dont misuse it. Religion is something wise and holy and great if you really know how to use it.

I'm sick enough to see how Mumbai get attacked,
Sick enough to see how Bali get bombed,
Sick enough to see how Madrid get bombed,
Sick enough to see how people in Iraq suffer just to survive,
Sick enough to see how people worship god and religion as a symbol of battle and war,
Sick enough to see how innocent people still praying for peace and other people are trying to eliminate peace.

Shallowing the whole bible,
Hiding inside the temple,
Saying all the wise words,
Praying 5 times a day,
Acting as a kind follower,
It is just a piece, or many pieces of shit bloody crap.
If you have the wrong mentality.

If you are doing what god asked you to do,
We will never get punished by Him.
See what the world is now,
If you dont wanna play a part in making it better,
Please dont make it worse.

Advice to myself

It is hard to know that sometime, you are just not good in something. You can try very hard to master in something, yet you are still remain blur. You just don't seem to get it though you spent days, cracking your head, thinking about it. Don't blame yourself and don't compare you and other with it better than you. They just seem to have that in their DNA. What can you do?

Everyone is unique and yet we are spending time to imitate other who we think is better than us and never realise how unique you can be if you spent the same amount time to upgrade yourself. Everyone has his own talents, either visible or invisible, as well as his own weaknesses. The only reason, according to Buddha (philosophy thingy ya, don't play play) we are suffering is because we have desire. Well, we are all suffering, thinking how to boost our weaknesses and neglect our strength. Sound funny and stupid? Well, we are.

We just need to admit that in certain field, we are just not that good (well, just not too good to compare with the pro) or totally sucks with it. It is ok, as if everyone is perfect. Some of them just trying so hard to capture all the attention around on him and he just don't know that he is keep putting his weaknesses on stage, which make him look worse.

We may just try very hard, too hard till we expect rewards out from our hardwork. But, world is just not a fair place. However, be proud to blow on your own trumpet and how hard you work on it. Trust me, someone will still notice it.

Instead of spending time and effort, investing on a wrong field, it is wise to put all your eggs on the correct basket. Just be yourself. Soemtime, what you think you want to do is different with what you can do. Be dare to dream and if it fails, at least you have tried and you are definitely better that many cowards that hide his ideas and action in his brain.

Just be yourself and proud to be yourself ;p