Peacefully rally? Seriously?

To be honest, i'm seriously tired after spending hours walking around KL for what i believe in, a cleaner and clearer election process. Yet, this is not really i expected, especially when compared to the previous rally.

I wasn't present for the first rally, so i shall talk about my experience based on this rally. Instead of putting blames on only the authorities, let's try to maintain neutral and analyze the whole event without any prior biases.

In my opinion, I think it is a failure. First of all, we are supposed to walk the talk, as we promised in default that this is a peaceful rally. I do anticipate adventures and obstacles from the polices and local authorities. You can always argue that being in a democratic country, it is part of our rights to participate in a rally, but we can just stop debating about that. For those who are not present at the rally, some of the protesters are just being brainless and barbarian. You don't smoke in a crowd whereby people are struggling to get enough air to breath. You don't kick or knock the billboards or the metal electrical cable boxes to be under the spotlights. You don't point middle finger nor throw items towards the police vehicles whenever they passed though. You don't suggest the crowd to fight against the local authorities and cops. You don't scream and make noise pollution as if you are being possessed by some kind of animals.

I believe as a human, if you don't do what you promise, it is your fault. Forget about the tear gases and water cannons, in default, none of the listed actions should be conducted in the first place.

Second, this rally is not as well organized as i have in mind. Again, as i'm anticipating dangers and road blocks around the city, i do not like the idea of wandering around the capital without knowing what to do. Most of us, especially those from KLCC spent at least an hour in front of the Menara Maybank for no reason. I'm blur, my friends are, my neighbors are, and basically everyone is blur. To be honest, if water cannons and tear gases were not being released, what are we going to do there at Dataran Merdeka beside spending sometime under the raging piecing sun rays and having picnics?

Back to another side of this story, i have to admit that i'm not a fan of the cops but this time they really make sure their brain is functioning well and under optimal performance. But you, as a cop, do not bring out your cameras and phones to take photos and videos when you are in duty. You are wearing your uniform and this indicates that you are on duty. Hence, stop behaving as if we are a bunch of celebrities that you might meet at nightclub that you must snap our photos because it is as rare as seeing KTM reaching on time.

In regards to all the accidents that occurred during this rally, i feel sorry for the victims and i personally think that some of it might not really due to your responsibility. It is hard to control a 100k crowd and unless your physical appearance is very significant, you might just be the unlucky bird that was shot by the hunters. You can blame the cops or anyone around you that blocked your escape route but sometime you can't predict it. And that is why it is an accident.

My experience? I would said it loses the real objective. It becomes a selfish anti government movement to some parties. I saw something like an 'angry lobster' joining the rally. Seriously, what are you, seafood doing on land? I saw the Hindraf organization pushing people away to clear their own path. One of the small fries actually suggested to fight our way through the crowd. Please, as a human, your parents, teachers or even your fairy tales do not suggest one to push and fight your way through a crowd, barbarian.

It gets so pointless and useless that we choose to leave earlier, which apparently after Ambiga ended the rally. We are lucky enough to leave our default stand spot or else we might able to see and pick up the tear gas cans cos we are standing on the first row as if we are at Lady Gaga's concert. Anyway, i believe that quality is always more crucial than quantity. I rather to have 10 Ambiga than 100k barbarians in this rally. I, if not most of the protesters, can be proud to be part of this rally and happy to say that i worked hard to maintain the peace and harmony during the rally. To those idiots, well, you should spend more time in classroom instead of in a rally ;p

FOC

Just face it. All human like free stuffs. However, ironically, we all feel skeptical whenever being offered for something that is free. It is pathetic. Due to the corrupted and polluted morality, we all tend to shut off our empathy and bring out the claw of defensiveness. Simple example, if one comes to you and give you a bookmark, will you accept it without doubt?

We can put the blame on the scam and marketing tactic that continuously erasing our empathy or trust. Yet, ask yourself, we do tend to take many things fro granted. We tend to treasure what we fight for, with sweat and blood. We love free stuff, but we don't treasure free stuff.

Once in Bangkok, i came across the 'Free Hug' event. This is something unique that i doubt you can see in Malaysia. Ignoring the fact that you cannot simply hug one in public in this conservative country, if there is such event exist in Malaysia, well, public might be just take this as another marketing booth for some kind of event. The pioneer of this event was in a despair mood before a random grandma hugged him. He then realized how powerful a hug, which is effortless and free, can be. Hence, he started this activity and now it is all around the world.

Only when we lose it, or maybe we need to spend more effort on it, will we pay more attention on the free stuffs around us. I never realized how grateful i should be until i hurt my leg. Imagine you can't sweat, can't have any direct contact with water, dust and anything dirty. I will definitely swim and jog once i healed.

Nothing comes into your life as a-FOC- item. You do earn it, deserve it. Maybe it is a blessing or pure lucky. Don't walk around telling others how much you miss it when you lost it. Just because something is there for you without any cost, doesn't mean it is not as valuable as any other things that you have ;p

(My first free hug experience. She is a girl. I'm very sure ;p)

Haunted by unresolved history

The only solution to solve a matter thoroughly is when you face it, despite all the obstacles, the fear, the pain, the humiliation and the anxiety. Of course, it would be easier if you can just avoid or escape, but the same matter will haunt you. Such nightmares are capable to drain one's soul, creating void and emptiness, only to make one running further away from the matter.Brave enough to face it and no doubt, you will be rewarded ;p

Opss, Mistake

Learn to accept mistakes and you will realize that the world is actually not as bad as you think it is. Besides, some mistakes are really worthy as a joke. So, laugh at it and then move on ;p

State of Peace

Peace is a state when you can sit down, do nothing, look around trivial matters, laugh about it and finally, appreciate the current feeling during such state. External reinforcements can helps you to get into this state. But if that is the case, maybe you are not peaceful enough to be in peace ;p

Blossom!!!!

All the beautiful things in life require you to wait. Unfortunately, most of us are so comfortable with shortcuts to make things bloom faster. This is when you will miss the moment of expectation, hope, determination, faith and gratitude on what you want. That's because if you can own it instantly; hence, why bother to wait?

Catching the next train

I always think timing is not a big issue. I think as long as i'm in control, i can forge whatever 'timing' i want for a matter to take place. That's until you are almost late for the last call. There are certain moments in life when you missed it, you missed it. (Train ride will be a good example)

Once one of my buddies told me how important timing is in life, i think it is just an excuse for being a coward in life. I guess i have to admit, well, you are right. You don't try to grill steak with the remaining heat on the stove. You just missed the best moment to grill ;p